daisytears:

CHALLENGE ME
INTELLECTUALLY STIMULATE ME
POINT OUT MY FLAWS
POINT OUT THINGS I’VE NEVER NOTICED BEFORE
SHARE SOMETHING WITH ME
TELL ME A SECRET YOUVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT
TELL ME A MEMORY YOU WANT TO HOLD ON FOREVER
CHALLENGE ME
CHALLENGE ME
CHALLENGE ME
DO NOT BORE ME
INTEREST ME
ENTERTAIN ME
I DON’T WANT LOVE, I WANT TRUTH, I WANT CONVERSATION, I WANT OPINION
I WANT TO FIGHT AND BE FOUGHT WITH
BE INTERESTING
BE INTERESTED
TELL ME WHAT MAKES YOUR SKIN CRAWL AND DONT TELL ME IT’ S JUST SPIDERS
TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU FEEL SUNRISES, DO YOU FEEL LIKE A SUNRISE TOO
GET AHEAD OR GET LEFT BEHIND
BE PASSIONATE
CHALLENGE YOURSELF
THAT’S WHAT TURNS ME ON, BITCH

i’m trying to articulate how lonely i feel

i want to forget everything so badly 

i want to forget over and over and over

feeling extra angsty today

i am in such a bad funk this is not groovy

i spent all of my money on food and alcohol i am so sad i just want to be paid asudjfasdjfjfjsij :-(((((((( 

i am so so soooooo ready to leave high school

i am very happy to have found some beautiful lifelong friends

but everything feels so disjointed

i am ready to end some things

i need to 

there’s a ball and a chain consisting of school, asb, speech, other people, expectations

i am learning slowly and surely to give less value to what others think of me

and try to understand how i perceive myself 

and if i even like myself 

i am excited for the new, finally

i feel so inadequate all the fucking time holy shit

If you know me, what would you say? I am plagued constantly by what others think of me. In their deepest corners, not their shallowest waters. I want to know if they think of me before they sleep and when they can’t sleep and I want to know why. I want to know who. Call me nosy, but I want to hear what they say about me behind my back to different people and how the story changes every time. I want to know truths and I want to know the lies they tell. I want to know their opinion. The good and the bad. The faults and the failures. I want to improve. I want to know why you care enough to think about me. So let me know.

I feel inferior and unlucky and sad and pissed off but mostly sad and worthless and useless and not good enough

constantly wondering if i’m living my life to its fullest potential; questioning if i’m striving to be the happiest i can be; criticizing whether or not i am taking enough risks or being authentic enough