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07 Oct 16 at 3 am

daisytears:

CHALLENGE ME
INTELLECTUALLY STIMULATE ME
POINT OUT MY FLAWS
POINT OUT THINGS I’VE NEVER NOTICED BEFORE
SHARE SOMETHING WITH ME
TELL ME A SECRET YOUVE FORGOTTEN ABOUT
TELL ME A MEMORY YOU WANT TO HOLD ON FOREVER
CHALLENGE ME
CHALLENGE ME
CHALLENGE ME
DO NOT BORE ME
INTEREST ME
ENTERTAIN ME
I DON’T WANT LOVE, I WANT TRUTH, I WANT CONVERSATION, I WANT OPINION
I WANT TO FIGHT AND BE FOUGHT WITH
BE INTERESTING
BE INTERESTED
TELL ME WHAT MAKES YOUR SKIN CRAWL AND DONT TELL ME IT’ S JUST SPIDERS
TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL WHEN YOU FEEL SUNRISES, DO YOU FEEL LIKE A SUNRISE TOO
GET AHEAD OR GET LEFT BEHIND
BE PASSIONATE
CHALLENGE YOURSELF
THAT’S WHAT TURNS ME ON, BITCH

i’m trying to articulate how lonely i feel

i want to forget everything so badly 

i want to forget over and over and over

feeling extra angsty today

i am in such a bad funk this is not groovy

i spent all of my money on food and alcohol i am so sad i just want to be paid asudjfasdjfjfjsij :-(((((((( 

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17 May 16 at 11 pm
tags: thoughts 

i am so so soooooo ready to leave high school

i am very happy to have found some beautiful lifelong friends

but everything feels so disjointed

i am ready to end some things

i need to 

there’s a ball and a chain consisting of school, asb, speech, other people, expectations

i am learning slowly and surely to give less value to what others think of me

and try to understand how i perceive myself 

and if i even like myself 

i am excited for the new, finally

i feel so inadequate all the fucking time holy shit

If you know me, what would you say? I am plagued constantly by what others think of me. In their deepest corners, not their shallowest waters. I want to know if they think of me before they sleep and when they can’t sleep and I want to know why. I want to know who. Call me nosy, but I want to hear what they say about me behind my back to different people and how the story changes every time. I want to know truths and I want to know the lies they tell. I want to know their opinion. The good and the bad. The faults and the failures. I want to improve. I want to know why you care enough to think about me. So let me know.

I feel inferior and unlucky and sad and pissed off but mostly sad and worthless and useless and not good enough

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02 Mar 16 at 12 am
tags: thoughts 

constantly wondering if i’m living my life to its fullest potential; questioning if i’m striving to be the happiest i can be; criticizing whether or not i am taking enough risks or being authentic enough